Eternal Loner

This I wrote over the past week coz...well..you'll see..It goes.. "In the bliss of solitude, I scrutinized my attitude. When in a crowd, I want to be lonely, On other occasions, I crave company. I guess I like company, Just as long as it doesn't bother me! Sincerity is a part of me, Loyalty comes naturally, But love continues to play hide-n-seek, my resolve to find it,is getting weak. My opinions reflect my psyche, unsure,undecided,but filled with honesty. I let anyone and anything bother me, Yet believe myself to be carefree! I do have friends,so many, But do I really trust any? Don't get me wrong,they're very nice, but I tend to notice,sweet talk and lies. Am I any better?Definitely not! But I still don't like to mix with the lot. Am I full of contradictions? I subject myself to introspection. Sometimes I think I'm a hopeless goner, or perhaps just the Eternal loner" - Renju.S.Kumar 18/07/08 Oh by the way I got my 8th sem results....84%...Topped my dept finally...Am I gloating? Definitely!!Its not an everyday occurence,is it?As they say...Better late than never!!!:)