Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Back to square one

That's precisely where I'm at.Life's gone a full circle on me,and I'm at the center of it.

There are 2 ways of looking at it.Either that I'm back at the beginning, or that I'm better equipped to handle the challenges life can throw at me.

I choose the second perspective. Life's good.

Friday, April 11, 2014

Always, always, always the best friend


Do looks really matter?

For the record,I'm not a looker.I have no illusions about my physical appearance.I am what one would term,"average".On a bad hair day,with my permanent buck teeth,I look positively ghastly.

If you're wondering,this is not self-deprecation.I'm not looking for sympathy or consolation.These are the plain facts.And the fact that you feel the urge to console me on my looks,proves me right!Looks do matter.

All through my childhood,I've had to work twice as hard to get half the recognition a better looking person is lavished with.They don't deserve the attention!They were born with the looks,didn't have to work to look that good.But oh,the rewards!Always the recipient of unjustified rewards.

Do I sound jealous?It's because you also know I just made a profound statement,
Good looking people can get away with murder.

The unattractive ones,the ones who are actually fun,well-mannered and kind-hearted,get their feelings stomped on with an alarming frequency.

Hence,they adapt a very handy shield.The guys becomes the clowns,and the girls turn tomboys,as their claim to fame.

Evidently,this choice puts them permanently on the "friend zone".Yes,there is such a thing.The unluckier ones fall in "the best friend zone".Haven't you heard it often enough,"But we're just friends","You are my best friend in the whole world ,but I don't see you that way".

Ya right! Try repeating that with a straight face when your "best friend" is a Brad Pitt or an Angelina Jolie.Why,even homegrown Rahul Dravid or a Ranbir Kapoor with all the controversy surrounding him would never be "just a friend".Bloody hypocrites!

Having been there,watching your crush dismiss you like an annoying flea,or your  love interest chasing after the pretty bitch(yes,the pretty ones always are!),I know what it feels like.

To joke away your  own feelings,,to console the bastard that's breaking your heart and watch him feel better as you make self-deprecating jokes,part of your presence in his life.

Yeah,been there,done all that - wishing on shooting stars,fasting and praying,being the kindest and most sensitive soul within miles.All that gets registered though,is your being too available.

Finally,like the chick flicks everyone likes to scorn,the makeover.You feel a sense a shallowness wash over you as you succumb to it,and reality hit you as you discover the obvious - it works!

Of course,the made over look barely touches your attitude.If it does,Abracadabra!You are now a beautiful swan!

If not,you're always ,always,always going to be the world's best friend!

Monday, November 4, 2013

What really matters?

It's interesting to notice that off late, I'm at a constant loss of words. I used to take pride in my ability to articulate almost anything. Yet, these days I find it difficult to string together simple thoughts. Do I lack coherence? Yes. Why? Perhaps, I overdo the thinking part. 
Is it bad?  Yes.  Why? Because, I'm constantly at battle in my mind. So? I am never at peace with myself. Hmmmm.... Interesting. 
Now, what if the introspection stopped? Well, atleast I can have a single mind. 
Good. And so it shall be! 

Friday, October 18, 2013

This is me, then!

There's a common notion that love is pain, that joy is inevitably followed by sorrow, that life is a vicious cycle and that everything is an illusion.

These notions are bullshit! You are alive, full of life, blessed with health and an ability to create your own happiness. Harness that power. Utilize it to the max! You are meant to be happy, so be! Smile :-) 

Sunday, August 11, 2013

The delete undelete dilemma

It's been quite sometime since I blogged.And all because someone told me that I become very transparent in my blogs.That one can easily see through me.It was quite an unsettling thought
It made me pretty uncomfortable.I stopped writing.I started introspecting every move of mine.
In the process,I stopped being myself.

I do realize this blog seems like my online diary.And yes,it will be like that coz everytime I write,I put a part of myself into it.With good reason too.I don't write things I dont feel or believe in.Writing is my only passion.Sure,I guess some things are private and should be kept off the cyberspace.

But there is nothing in this blog that I am even remotely ashamed of.So why should I be thinking twice about owning up to my thoughts and feelings.Wouldn't that make me a hypocrite?

There are times when I did consider deleting this blog.But I never could. I cherish this part of me.(And believe me there are not too many things in life that I do cherish).I love writing.I love putting my thoughts out for everyone to see(Egoistic me!!:) Obnoxious?Hell yeah!!

Besides,this is MY blog.Visitors are welcome.Only,they get to read MY thoughts.So enter at your own risk!!

Sunday, June 2, 2013

Why?

For some time now,
I have nursed a dream,
And now that it is achievable,
Why do I miss the obstacles that were?
Is it too easy?
Is it worth the struggle?
Is it just another distraction?

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Am I shouting?

It started off as a childish act,
what would later become a hard fact,
"Don't climb trees!Behave around boys!!",
So I climbed the highest tree after stealing their toys!

My childish prank they did forgive,
But not the rules about how I should live,
Was it my narrow-minded world views?
What others accepted as norm,to me was news.

In my own way,I put up a fight,
For what I believed in,and thought my right;
I recoiled in shock and disgrace,
when I was told I'm wrong,to my face!

It took me a while to realize,
That it was a mindset that cut me to size.
It would take another to recognize,
The world is sustained on a web of lies.

So here I stand,raising my voice,
When all complain about the needless noise.
All these farcical rules,I am flouting,
To make my point,Am I shouting?